October 30, 2013

The Idea Box

10:00 am in art,comics,dreaming,life Ulises Farinas

I’m Ulises Farinas. I was thinking about what I’d want to write, but i usually find writing for it’s own sake, to be difficult and laborious. I need parameters, i need goals, i can’t just sit down and think “Here comes some hot fiyah’ made of words!” On Mister Misses, those parameters are set by the questions that I’m asked. Other times, something has moved me to anger and i gotta just rant it out. Rarely, do I enjoy anything enough to recommend it to others. Every time I’m asked, what’s the last great thing I’ve seen, read, experienced, etc. it’s always a memory that’s already 6 months old.

I’m not satisfied with comics, with movies, with popular culture. But mostly, I’m not satisfied with myself. I’m not a good enough artist, or a story teller. I can draw more, draw bigger, and draw better. I can keep my head down, aim for mediocrity, and succeed beyond my mildest dreams. I work in comics, and its an industry that rewards mediocrity. You draw your books, you do them on time, and you don’t aim for the stars, you don’t miss the moon. At the end of the day, a successful cartoonist is most likely middle class, poorly dressed, overweight and devoid of any true creative endeavors. You’ll get excited when your creator-owned comic is just another spiderman knock off or a pastiche of your own life through a cheap filter, and you’ll raise your money on kickstarter, or sell it on comixology, and tell people about it at after parties.

And then you’re home, you count how many business cards you have left, you get in bed, you got nothing. An overpriced apartment in brooklyn, a hangover, and the accomplishments of a 15 year old going on 45. That’s the fear that gnaws at me every evening. This is unacceptable.

For many years, I’ve wanted to write about my Father, but he’s still alive and i often feel like if i write about him, its like I’m writing an obituary. So rather than talk about the life he lead, I’ll talk about the things he still teaches me. Maybe first of all, fuck being a poor artist. Grow up poor and you’ll get all the education you need. But it’s bigger than that. In an effort to keep these things at the forefront of my mind, I’ve conceived the Idea Box.

The Idea Box is everything i’ve learned about being an artist that has nothing to do with picking up a pencil. There’s a million books about how to draw anatomy, how to draw comics, there’s art school for cartooning that teaches you how to use a xerox machine for $35,000. And really, it doesn’t amount to shit if at the end of the day, you’re done drawing your comic, and all you can feel is ‘Now what?” So i won’t focus on those things, when i finally put down my pencil and i’m done with drawing for the day, its not some rhetorical question. Every night, i ask “Now what?” and i have to be okay with the answer. How i arrive at that answer, will be the Idea Box.

I’m Ulises Farinas, you can find me here –

ulisesfarinas.com

https://www.facebook.com/ulises.farinas

 

 


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